More Festival Fun & Mommy Worry

Curwood Castle in Owosso

Allen trying on a kilt at the Curwood Festival

Yummy Pancake Breakfast

Almost 38 weeks Pregnant!

One of the good things about living in a rural area is that during the spring and summer months almost every town surrounding us has their own fair or festival and this past weekend was no exception. Last weekend was the Home Town festival in Swartz Creek, before that was our Railroad Days festival in town and on Saturday we went to the Curwood festival in Owosso. The Curwood festival had a civil war encampment, medieval encampment, rides, arts/crafts fair, etc. Austin's favorite parts were going in the Curwood Castle (built in 1922 as a writers studio for James Curwood) and the pancake breakfast because they made him his very own Mickey Mouse pancake with an M&M nose:) Joy the clown even made Austin an elephant balloon animal. Next up is the HUGE Railroad festival 2009 in Owosso which apparently is a nationwide event and is held in a different state each year and then the Montrose Blueberry Festival in August. It should be a fun summer for the boys and I!

Austin and I went to what I thought was my last OB appointment before our C-section next week but I was told I have to come back on Monday next week, 2 days before the C-section to have another check-up. Connor is doing good, still moving around like crazy, especially at night. I haven't gained any weight in the last 3 weeks which is good news for me, it's less weight I have to worry about losing later on. So it looks like 39lbs is my weight gain this time around.

I'm starting to get a little nervous about the C-section. Since it was unplanned last time I had no idea what to expect but this time knowing that I'll be strapped down to the operating table and be able to feel my abdomen being pulled in 2 different directions makes me feel a bit queasy. I'm just praying I don't have to be in the recovery room without my baby for 2 hours like last time.

And then comes the worrying about Austin and how he is going to react to everything and I have to admit I've cried a few times already hoping he doesn't think Mommy and Daddy are trying to replace him and worrying that I won't be able to spend enough time with him because newborns need so much attention.....Since I quit my job when Austin was 9 months old, it's just been him and I and I know this is going to be a big adjustment for him and I don't want him to feel like he's being pushed to the side. I'm really hoping he'll want to help Mommy out with Connor so that he feels more a part of everything. And Austin and Daddy already have a couple special trips planned together for the time Allen is home with us after Connor's birth. I just didn't imagine I would feel so torn and sad over the change in our relationship that is about to happen when Connor is born. Then I feel guilty for focusing so much on Austin and feeling like what if I don't love Connor as much as I love Austin? Which I know is silly, I'll love both my boys more than anything else in this world. I think my hormones are going crazy:)